-Sylvia Plath
A sterile hospital wall is our only division
Erect, we hover over infants in their death incubators
Commune with our own conceptions of Whoever is responsible
Whisper life-saving affirmations
We breathe slowly,
In this place beyond oxygen,
Without gravity
our occupancy
lengthens the brevity of each idle second simply because we’ve held fast to a small semblance of our own mortality
We remain in this trancelike state until
God has tallied the scorecards,
Justice has weighed our transgressions
The scales have blindly spoken
Her scream penetrated me in the most intimate manner
At first, Clarity confounded me
As it leaked from behind my eyes
I began to choke on the stillness
Straight from her now quiet newborns chest
It reverberates through my vocal chords
For a second, I could’ve sworn the death
Announcement was mine
Those piercing shrieks were mine
For reasons that transcend
Affluence and privilege;
The sparse momentos people like me hold Delicately, fearful they might shatter and our entire concept of faith would
go on to be lost with them…..
We are so blissfully unsure of consciousness
Or what establishes one
as one which thrives
While another nuzzles into its own suicidal delicacy and capitulates
Either way, the clatter between my ears
Settles and I’m useless to tame
My feverish inquiries
“If each petition is lifted into
The celestial sphere with the exact same
Rhythm, why was mine blessed enough to remain written?”
I could only hope to convince myself
She would cope, learn to occupy a certain numbness,
Overlap it’s silent provocation with the
Sort of indulgent memorial typical
When burying your first born before the
Momentum even commenced.